In My Dreams (Needs to Stay in My Dreams)

2009 July 14
by Ashley

I have a tendency to have very vivid dreams and the knack to remember them pretty well. In fact, I still remember a dream I had when I was about 12 or 13 that involved most of my childhood friends, thats how weird it was.

There are the good dreams, like the time I dreamt that we all got called into the conference room and got laid off (yes that was a good dream). There are the really out there dreams and the did that really happen or was I really dreaming dreams?

But then there are last night’s types of dreams. I’ve had them only a handful of times and each time, something happened in real life almost in correlation to the dream I’ve had which has left me unnerved all morning and its taking my entire willpower not to call this person up and make sure they are alright.

The last time I had this type of dream was my freshman year of college. I had this elaborate dream that this guy, who I didn’t even know, was with me and going through all these events. He was dying of cancer and we were trying to cram the last remaining bits of time he had left with all these memories. I woke up the next morning bothered by it and when I found out one of my close friend’s friend had died overnight from cancer I thought it a bit odd that I had the dream the night before.

Last night I dreamt that I was at my parents house (only it wasn’t my parents actual home) and my mom and I were discussing this whole situation with D. (You know, the one where I’m sleeping with him again? Yeah thats the one.)  My mom said something about how I need to get over him or something and showed me his obituary.

That’s right, his obituary. The dream was weird in the sense that apparently I was sleeping with his ghost all this time but I remember being so confused, so upset and searching for answers on how he died, that when I woke up to my alarm, I was in tears.

I do not like dreaming about people dying or being dead. No matter what they’ve done to me in the past, dreams of death do not sit well. It’s only left me with a bad feeling in my stomach and worried. The last time I dreamt about death, someone died.

Don’t anyone go dying on me today ok????

One could analyze this dream, saying oh well you dreamt he was dead because you are dealing with a “dead” relationship, you’re hanging out with a guy who definitely shouldn’t be in your dating life anymore so you’re only dating the ghost of him.

That doesn’t make me feel any better. All I hear is BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAAAAH. He died in my dream and now i’m all freaked out.

I hate my subconscious. It totally sabotages EVERYTHING.

Now I’m going to focus on the fact that I haven’t packed nor will i have time to before I move on friday, that I am going to the Philharmonic in the park tonight and seeing Harry Potter at its midnight premiere. Because I am a dork like that.

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  1. 2009 July 14

    damn subconscious!!!

    Your kinda lucky though. I never remember my dreams.

  2. 2009 July 14

    I HATE HATE HATE when I try and analyze dreams. It doesn’t make me feel any better about it.

    I dreamt a few months ago that my ex was calling out to me needing me to call him. So I did, and didnt get a response. I was massively worried for weeks, wondering what was wrong.

    Finally, it just faded as dreams tend to do, but I do know how you feel….

    Advice? I have none.

    Vodka? I have plenty. Come over!

  3. 2009 July 14

    Wow! I haven’t had one of those dreams before. I hardly ever remember my dreams, but if I did and it was like that, I would be freaked out too.

    Have fun at HP!! I can’t go until friday.

  4. 2009 July 14

    I used to have the occasional incredibly vivid nightmare. I haven’t had one of those in years. And I don’t miss them, so here’s hoping they don’t come back!

  5. 2009 July 14

    First of all, SO jealous you’re going to see HP tonight!

    I have crazy, vivid dreams like that, too. The ones where I spend the whole day wondering if it was a dream or reality freak me out the most. Our brains do some pretty wild stuff. I lived in Hawaii when I was a kid and we had to evacuate our house because of a tsunami warning (we lived directly across the street from the beach) and to this day, I have a dream on an almost weekly basis that I’m at the beach and a giant wave hits and I can’t escape, or I’m out at sea caught in some huge storm with giant swells swallowing the boat.

  6. 2009 July 14

    I never try to analyze my dreams. I have the most bizarre dreams, and most mornings I spend hours just thinking about them. Most of the time they’re so realistic, that I ask my sister “did I or was that in my dream?” and it’s always answered by “it was in your dream”.

  7. 2009 July 14

    I COMPLETELY resonated with this post. I had a dream that my ex died and I was so distraught. I wrote this post ( http://imerika.wordpress.com/2009/04/08/the-death-of-an-ex/ ) and everyone told me it was because I was moving on.

    A couple of weeks later, he called me and told me has an incurable disease!! I’m sort of freaked out now…

  8. 2009 July 14

    Midnight showing? That sounds awesome. I wish I could go to the premier midnight showing too but I always have morning classes and stupid stuff like that these days :( gotta wait until later :(

    Ps. I know what you mean about experiencing something you’ve dreamt about. Happened quite a lot to me and totally freak me out.

  9. 2009 July 14

    i read once that if you dream someone dies it means that they are going to get married. okay, so i read it in a judy blume book (starring sally j. freeman as herself), but it stuck with me.

    vivid dreams like that completely freak me out … especially fighting dreams, where you are arguing with someone in your sleep and wake up angry. i have those more often than i would like to analyze. ;)

  10. 2009 July 14

    Dreams can be soo freaky! I once heard that if you dream about someone dying, you will soon find out someone close to you is pregnant. Twice, after I’d had dreams about losing someone close to me, I found out, within days, that someone I knew was pregnant. Crazy.

    Good luck with the packing!

  11. 2009 July 14

    Yikes, I hate when I have a dream that’s such a bummer it puts me in a bad mood the next day!

  12. 2009 July 15
    Lisa permalink

    you know, i have very vivid dreams. i dreamed once my brother died and i was so upset for several days. i’ve dreamed that my husband was having an affair right in front of me and i was so upset with him. that’s right, in waking hours, i was upset with him for having an affair in my dream.

    dreams are a crazy thing when you have them and experience them vividly.

    if i have a crazy dream, whether it’s bad or good, and it involves someone i know, i always call that person up. i don’t necessarily tell them about the dream, but it makes me feel better to hear his/her voice on the line.

    so, go call d. and i hope he’s okay.

  13. 2009 July 15

    i dream like that too. i can have a whole day ruined or happy depending on my subconcious. i’ve had dreams where i’ve talked to my mom and i wake up feeling refreshed and i’ve had dreams where she wouldn’t talk to me at all. the dreams about my mom and a certain guy are always the worst.

    stupid subconsciousness!

  14. 2009 July 15

    Dreams are so weird. I really want one of those “interpret your dreams” books. I definitely think our dreams tell us things.

  15. 2009 July 22
    quarterlifeconfessions permalink

    I have definitely had eerie dreams like that before, and I always wake up panicked and searching for my cell phone to make sure I don’t have a ton of messages about the terrible thing that has happened to whoever was the focus of my dream. Thankfully, thus far, everyone has been all right. I just found your blog and I think its great, btw! I’ll definitely be following it.

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